I have a confession to make.
Sometimes I feel, well…old. Tired. Done.
It usually happens when I catch my reflection somewhere and think, Who in the world is that? Or maybe I glance at my hands on the car’s steering wheel and get confused. Surely the rest of me doesn’t look that old!
Rather strange, this aging thing. I mean, really. What’s with the spots on my arms and the droopy eyelid thingy? And let’s not even talk about the weird aches and pains…
Regrettably, sometimes the whole visual thing seeps into my mind and heart and I’m tempted to just quit. What’s the point of learning, growing, striving? Maybe it’s time to put my feet up and let the world rush on by—just flip on the TV and put my brain on autopilot.
I have another confession to make.
Sometimes I feel, well…young. I have the urge to throw up my hands and sing at the top of my lungs. I want to dance. I want to throw my head back and laugh—long and loud—about nothing. I long to dream, to create, to start something new.
I feel like I could do anything. I could get a running start and jump high and long (Well, actually I did this a couple of years ago with a group of 6th-graders and ended up tearing my ACL and needing surgery. But I made the jump. Just sayin’).
I think the Lord knew we would experience such a wide range of feelings and emotions in our life-journey, because His word has some surprising things to say…
They will still bear fruit in old age, they will stay fresh and green, (Psalm 92:14 NIV)
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. (2 Corinthians 4:16 ESV)
Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. (Romans 12:11 NIV)
“Fresh and green…”
“Renewed day by day…”
Wow. Not even a mention of slacking off and giving up. We may feel a little dry and used up, but if we’re here and breathing, God still has plans and purpose for us.
And those wonderful moments when we feel like a kid again? Directly from the Lord. He is ready and waiting to do something exciting, something amazing, something new…
What “new thing” does God want to do in you?